haix today family meeting i said something i shouldnt...
i guess i am the one who started all this mess...
i feel so stress right now...
i really wanna cry...
why do people why to stress us in joining guild...
haix that guility is make me wanna fall apart
i'm really sorry i dint mean anything bad just
that i cant make the decision so all push to you sorry...
now i make cOnFuSeD and myself don really wanna play anymore...
maybe i really should have not say anything...
so hate myself...
my be i make the wrong decision to be part of emerald...maybe i never should be in the meeting..
i make everyone so unhappy....
February 2009
